Sometimes I feel so lame being pregnant. Clarification: I"m excited to have a baby, but sometime I feel so lame being pregnant, oh and unemployed, in Utah. Especially in Provo, Utah, where it seems like seriously every other girl is preggo. I'm a blog stalker, I admit, and more lately because I get bored, but if you have a list thing on your blog of other people you follow, likely I've at least read at least some of them. I know its kinda silly. And anyone who is around Provo is, I swear, pregnant.
It just makes me feel so dumb, especially because I didn't get an internship and I'm not working now (not my choice but that's just what life is right now). I feel like some ditzy stereotypical girl who went to BYU just to get married and start popping out babies as soon as possible. [Even though I know that most, if not all, of the girls who are pregnant (including myself) aren't ditzy and care about education and are just doing what they feel is right about baby timing.]
I'm pretty sure that I wouldn't feel this way (or at least a lot less so) if I was pregnant in any other state or, hint hint, any other country, but for some reason being pregnant in Provo just makes me think like this. Can anyone else relate to this feeling?
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yes. I did graduate and have an oh so glamorous job before I got pregnant, but we were trying, it took a while to actually conceive...but before I graduated I wondered what I would actually do if I were pregnant. Who would hire me, etc...I only worked 10 and a half months. My boss was not thrilled when I told him I was expecting. But what did he expect, I was working on BYU campus, had graduated, and was married?
If you are bored you can always come hang out with me. I know your post was not about being bored, but you can come over whenever you want.
I DEFINITELY know what you mean. Although I'm not preggo, I know that when I do I'll never announce it in my ward and have to hear the chorus of "ahhs" that sound a little fake because it's just another person who's having a baby. It is hard because having a new little one is such a big deal, a wonderful event to you, but there's so many others doing the same thing it is hard to feel special. :) But I'm sure happy for you and that baby! Just don't let those feelings take away from what a special occasion this is for the two of you.
well, i'm not pregnant :) but i think it would be hard to be somewhere where having kids is just the next thing expected of you. i want having kids to be my decision and my sacrifice and my joy and have people recognize it as such, not as just another thing i'm supposed to be doing. so yeah, i can see that that would be hard :/ but it's okay - it's still your decision and your sacrifice and your joy - just keep telling yourself.
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